dont bottle up

its been weeks since i last stepped in to town.. beez bz w work..like, real bz..see i have 2 jobs so i nd to give my time to each commitment considerately n smartly..

last wkend's event at dempsey was da shit.. fri was some corporate even then sat was a bdae party..indonesian chi people.. 17th bdae ald so grand..my 17th was a sucky one..damn! i havent had a blast yet for my bdays each yr.. except for my 16th..hehe..

and then sunday was really slacked..elton n abg faizal were wearin slippers at work.. cuz boss wasnt thr -.- i spent 90% of my whole time sittin n nt doin anythin! grrr.. until nett came at 6pm.. he helped me out in alotta things.. abg faizal wasnt frenly tt dae..cuz he was fasting.. wth..
nett jugak gerek..hmph! so d people had their dinner at 8.. i admit i was malas malas to work.. boredom spoilt my mood so i spent my time accompanyin nett at d bar.. he was dead alone..
so nett, u owe me fags! hahahaha...
d event ended early though so i took d bus home..

i have no sch todae.. shats! miss her laaa..
yestrdae was gerek uh only 1 hr in sch.. nt includin PE.. did nothin.. bt just some leakin out of feelings to dee n alia.. they were and are great people to turn to when im down n out.. great listeners n they do give great advices n solutions.. UNLIKE YOU...
im fasting.. dont make me swear.. hahaha...

hrs more to go till i get to c u agn... haii..

i dont noe y im listenin to dance music right now! hahahahahahahaa

a whole lot-a stuffs

ok mega apologies fer not updatin my blog..been weeks..hehe..

reason=lazy.. hee

ive been partyin n workin alot lately..pwrhse..nowhere else..my classmates love to party thr so i just tag since tts whr they're goin..i dont hav a choice! bt last wk was d last wk they're partyin thr as me n her really got tired of it ald..nxt stop, rebel? idk..

apologies to ajib AND asyura fer nt attendin his bdae celebration which was held zouk..although they spent most of d time bein drunk outside..hahaha.. i was caught up at work man! i ald promised tt i was goin rite? bt my boss called me up last min..u noe, money comes 1st so yea.. thought it wld end at abt 1 bt stupid hens ddnt wanna leave..n i left d place at 3.30..party wat?! shittyss..

last 2 wkends i spent d nite at powerhouse..yea i rushed down thr aft work just to find out tt it was fullhouse! fuck.. i queued fer almost an hr b4 i got in..my attendance wasnt known by her at all..n d 1st person i saw amongst my frens when i got in was her! hhaa..yes n tt happy-surprised look was thr on her face! yay! i just had to kiss her at tt moment! so she accompanied me to d locker, placed my stuffs n headed to d bar fer some drinks b4 we get d party goin on.. she got drunk 1st la wth! hahaha.. still can say she's strong.. -.-

bt overall, im thankful n fuckin paiseh 2wards her for tt nite.. hee..

inside, i really ddnt expect to see any of my other frens.. bt guess who i saw la.. jeff..haha.. n 2 wks aft, an.. omg i fuckin miss dem..SP.. yea.. d great bunch.. damn!

at work, d bonds bet my colleagues and i are gettin closer n closer.. we're like 1 big fam..hehe.. nt d restraunt staffs la.. just d bartenders n d bar people..love dem alot! last thurs i had to work for a Wine Tastin event..nt bad uh.. d artists painted usin d wines.. Cabinet Savarougn n Shirez.. ok dunno spelling..

a new girl just joined us n her name is Sharlene..nice person la.. we talked like we've known each other for years.. haha..had a bottle for ourselves at d end of d party.. thnx to elton d bartender fr philipines for keepin tt 1 bottle fer us..hahahah.. u noe jobs like tis.. hahaha..

then we waited for Nett, handsome bartender fr thai, to finish writtin his reports n we left d place at abt 2..tt was my best nite so far workin thr..we had a bond.. so Sharlene to d cab w my boss n John, guy fr UK.. n i took d cab w Elton n Nett.. i swear nett was drop dead charmin .. hee.. abg faizal off la tt dae..it wld've been better w him arnd..

movin on, i went to KL last wkend w fam..took d bus..5 hrs journey.. everythin was gd except d aircond! fuckin cool n d water !! damnit! i wasnt as excited as d last time i went thr.. KL changed so much i swear! hahaha.. n ya i got to see d REAL KL tis time.. d people, d atmosphere n d situation.. hahaha.. cool ayy?.. only tt we ddnt go to club areas.. maybe nxt time when i go w frens la .. it wldnt be just goin to d areas then..hee.. ya'll noe wat i mean..

ddnt do much shopping as d last time.. i ddnt noe wat i want.. ddnt noe want to buy or not.. buy for wat.. u noe.. like no mood.. haha.. n 70% of d whole time i had quarrels w my sis..irritating uh! she's just too irritating! i get irritated w irritating people! damnit..

oh! oh! i saw a bunch ok KL's underaged MINAHS!!! omg cool kan?! their dressing is as masai i swear! hahaha.. d hairstyle everything is d same..only tt they hv d msian look.. hehe..

tis time, we ddn take cab.. we walkd.. n walkd.. n walkd.. awesome short journeys.. i like.. hehe.. we got lost half d time bt worth it la..we got to see diff kind of people thr..

u noe i kept thinkin of u d whole time i was thr.. my fingers everytime itchy u noe want to msg u! bt no roaming.. haha.. i was really touched to receive all 4 msges fr u when i reached spore..cldnt wait to msg u u noe! haha..


k guys my cake is almost done!!!!!!! haha but! my butterflies broke agn! KNNCCB!!
its my 3rd attempt ald! damnit!!!!
aaaaaarrgghhh!! fuck!

ok i swear alot these days.. duno wats becomin of me la cb btol! ok.. hahahha

k bye..

hate tags sey!

read my hate tags frens!
hahahaha..

ya'll noe me better than those people rite?
haha..

lets update!

bayby...ooohh...oooohhh..ooooooohhhh... haha.. tts a warming start ~

ysterdae, gt up early bt still late n went to work.. i finally chatted w d bartenders thr; elton n abg faizal.. they're really nice ppl..not like wat i thought..halfway, abg faizal was like flirtin arnd..so does d 2 gay waiters..hahaha cute la they all..

clockd out at abt 7pm n went to yp to meet halis n rima..gt da showcase..watched fer awhile then went to bugis to get my ic..thnx guys fer accompanyin! appreciate much! aft tt, i took d bus to vivo to meet dem all..

i had a blast at powerhouse w my classmates;sherlene, kat, elynn, qil, deb, viv, mo n meilin..
i reachd thr late..ddnt plan on tellin dem tt i was goin as i wantd to give dem a surprise cuz they wantd me to go badly..hahaha..
so yea, got my hand chopped, threw ma bag in d locker n chilled outside..deb came at abt 1 plus.. so i wasnt d last one to reach okay!

powerhouse=kental songs
seriously..

i want zouk pls?

ignore wat u see on d table..hehe..

who says i dont love my classmates?

uh..tis is wat im talkin abt! hahaa

elynn was so adorable when she was drunk!

uh..yaa..hairstylist..chey chey chey.. haha

monster..

hmm.. those who noe, keep it low.. those who dont, no need to noe okay?

i slept like a pig when i reachd home.. aaaaaaaaaahhh then nash called me up at abt 3 n we went w d rest to catch a show at bukit merah.afterwhich went to sheesha at hj lane.. thr was whr we turned into hungry ghosts! haha.. went to eat at beach rd then back home...

im shocked tt its almost 4am rite now.. 4 hrs more to sleep!!!

to you, dont tell me wat to do.. tis is my blog remmbr?

DIRTY DIANA!! nah...

k bye

YOU - nur jannah allia

you were there to light my day
you were there to guide me through
when my days are down n out,
ill never stop thinkin of you

how can i forget all that
when you're the one who made me smile
you'll always be a part of me
how i wish you were still mine

i never will forget the day
how we met and came this far
when we only got this feeling
but somehow it has to end up here

i noe its me who said goodbye
and thats the hardest thing to do
cuz you mean so much to me
and thats the truth from me to you

for all the things ive done and said
for all the hurt that ive caused you
i hope you will forgive me baby
cuz that wasnt wat i meant to do

you were there to light my day
you were there to guide me through
when my days are down and out
ill never stop thinkin of you

how can i forget all that
when you were the one who made me smile
you'll always be a part of me
how i wish you were still mine

i cant forget you ex-bf.. everyday i'd just sit n listen to my heart fer a min..
still lookin fer u.. still yearnin fer u..
i'd just start cryin just by hearin yr name..

oh god..how i wish u were still mine..
i blame myself totally for wat happnd to u..
hadnt i been so cold, u wldnt have to end up like tt..

im sory dear..

up till now, i cant find a person who can take yr place..
my heart just wont open up fer anyone else..
i want u..
i cant move on...

tis piece comin up, is wat i wrote myself in d middle of d nite..

kau yg pertama, kau jualah yg terakhirnya
kenangan kita bersama, tidak pernah ku lupakan
air wajahmu, sentiasa bermain di mata
hangat dakapanmu, sering ku terasa

maafkan aku syg kau jadi begini
entah mengapa tidak terbuka pintu hati
untuk menerima cintamu lagi
namun, aku kesal hingga waktu ini

harapan bina mahligai bersama, hancur di sekelip mata
angan-angan cinta selamanya, pupus dalam satu nafas
kata-kata indah, tidak lagi bermakna
di hari kau miliki cahaya mata bersama dia

tergamak kau lakuin aku begini
hidupku kini bagaikan tiada erti
ruang di hati masih lagi terkunci
mengaharap kau kembali, (insert name)

mungkin aku pusing, mungkin aku takut
untuk bercinta lagi, untuk menyayangi lagi
cukuplah dgn apa yg tlah ku alami
biarlah waktu yg menentukan nasibku ini

tis is exclusive..ive nvr posted wat i wrote b4..
let tis b d 1st n d last..
thnk u readers who took their time to read tis..
n thnk u frens, who have been thr fer me,.,

my heart.. is still aching..